Is this love or is this confusion?

Love is quite a interesting thing.

This complexity of levels of what is love.

The more I advance the more I notice a lot of things I did love in the past were things that did bring a strong sense of validation to my self.

To love certain things were part of this identity created from all life experiences, positive and negative traumas.

The experience we live and didn't choose due to being in situations we didn't choose or knew we could choose.

To love this and to hate this, but truly how do we really know?

Is this all this chemical addiction from coping with certain traumas and to receive this form of love through external things made it all better.

Many would say I love to drink, I love when this person who makes me feel good about my flaws, I love to watch this tv show.

But if all this never happened before in our lives. If all of this didn't exist.

What would we love? How could we base our lives on this things.

But we say these things are what makes us whole.

These are the things that keep me going, through the daily suffering and pain.

The reason I go through things all week that I don't enjoy, these things make it all worth while.

But if not of this wasn't there, if life was just as simple as having all needs met.

Being whole from within.

What would then be love?

How would these things be influencing us?

Wouldn't it make things a lot differently.

These things that obviously have a strong dose of pain attached to the love we receive from it.

How could we then difference love for confusion?

To love then is it to be able to open our hearts to something while not wanting any high from it?

But does this in itself cause a high? Wouldn't this be contradictory?

Then what is this love? This thing that we want the most in our lives.

To love our families, to love our lives, to love every moment.

What makes this real and what makes this confusion?

Is this something that we can really justify in words.

That we can say truly this is why I love something or we are just trying as fool to justify to others and our ego?

Do we seek certain things that are acceptable to love and be part of our identity towards having a sense of purpose and acceptance from the ones who surrounds us that we believe are the source of love that we receive.

But if this thing comes without conditions, wouldn't this be contradictory as well?

Is this truly something from the soul, something that when we are whole and have no reason to seek anything extra but makes us resonate to a next level of ourselves.

If we are our true selves, that this things highlights it all. It just focused on making all our "flaws" and our beauty shine brighter then we can by ourselves due to this intense energy flowing through this gate that we are channeling perfectly already.

We all hear love is everything, but what is love? What is confusion?

How can we know deeply in within us does this make me feel good or does this enhance my ability to be my true self?

What is my true self?

Who would I be if I just completely land into my life right now. No traumas, no baggage only a clean slate in the present moment. No previous thoughts, no previous ideas of what happened before.

Only a strong connection to this experience happening right now. To feel what is truly natural to this body we are in. The natural system that is already built.

What would we chase? What would we go towards?

Wouldn't love be a completely different view of what we built it from throughout our whole experience. This illusion from what we learned from birth and developed.

The way we learned it through others, through experiences learning from what they experienced love was.

Having a completely new view of it, would we know what is love or what is confusion?

Would then this voice that is guiding us without previous experiences and data just flow towards what is truly love versus confusion.

This would be a interesting scenario, but these things that happened shaped us and made us who we are now. They are the reason we act in certain ways, the reason we build our identity.

But if we could surrender all these past ideologies without fear of having nothing to fall back to. To have a slate of nothing which is everything at the same time.

How would we advance, would we still be confused or would we be guided towards love.

But again what is love? What is confusion?